sexy sexy computrainer of joy.

Hey everyone. so its been a while. i know i know. last you heard i was pooped. then i crawled out of it. but now im pooped again. i know its because of these heavy loads on tuesday thursday and saturdays...i need to get more sleep and im not taking care of myself in that way. i started dating...HA...weird i know. they say that once you start that dating thing--your training goes down the tubes. i am very weary of this...and i haven't let it get in the way--but it is amazing how good you feel when you go out and have a few crazy nights on the town and not think about training. At least....that is what others say. I wouldn't really know... i seem to just never not think about training. even when i am in the heat of training--i am thinking about it or what the next session will be...or what im going to eat next so that i am sure to recover right so that i am good to go for the next big workout. Therefore...i am quite sure that this "dating thing" wont last very long. To a "non-triathlete" i would imagine i am boring as hell. HA. well sorta. i can pretend that i have other interests...but that wont last long. i guess i am just too in love...and its not with a man. So the reality is....is that dating is probably the reason that i am pooped. managing training long hours...work (when i go...haha)...life stuff (clean apt, laundry, groceries...you get my drift)...the last remaining minutes need to be spent sleeping and blogging (ha) and not cuddling up with some dude. (even though i think he is just great.) Geez...i hope he doesn't read this....although I know he would understand. either way--i wouldn't trade Tri for the world. it is something i choose to do. my choice. some say that Tri shouldn't identify you...it doesn't...i identify with it. living out my dream everyday....dreams dont happen when you sleep--remember??!!! Time is so very precious. Remember that statement..I will come back to it in a future blog. Training is going just amazing. Cadence is so PIMP. like for real--i may be the luckiest chic on the planet. I LOVE THE COMPUTRAINER. did i just say that? yes. i did. and I MEAN IT. i LOVE THE COMPUTRAINER> i may have just yelled that out my window for all to hear. Yes...there is totally something wrong with me. In fact, I remember when I got my first trainer. I got in the saddle and rode for like 5 hours. literally. My friend kept calling me and leaving joking messages on my voicemail..."you are probably still on your trainer....." the funny thing was that I was. I was alone in my NYC apt on my bike trainer at like midnight....fogged up windows....getting tickled pink over the sound of the rubber on the flywheel. i will never ever ever forget it. it was the greatest thing i have ever bought. I remember telling some of my tri friends that i got my first trainer...and how totally stoked i was...they were like "elizabeth....what the hell is wrong with you?" they haaaated the trainer. personally, I think its pretty hot. when was the last time you met a hot chic that drools over her bike trainer? HA. yes, i am pretty hot. HA! Back to the greatest trainer of all time...the computrainer!! I dont know why i love it so. is it that you can constantly monitor and push yourself? all your stats right there in front of you. setting wattage at different levels and forcing yourself so stay at that output. it is so damn hot. i LOVE the classes at cadence. i love being in a room with a bunch of sweaty men...and i am putting out more wattage than most of them. HAHA. its friggin hot. and i love sweat. i dont even like to turn on the fans cuz i love to just sweat all over the place. wow--i am gross. sorry to be so graphic but i know that some of you get what i mean. when i sweat... i feel like i am really alive. i love the feelings that you get when you go through the workout...sometimes you struggle but you keep cranking and you get through it...and sometimes the highest wattage feels so easy. UGH. i want to get back on the saddle right now. Yes i am sick. i must be. But that is the difference between me and most. I dont need motivation. ever. i just need someone to tell me what to do and i'll be damned if i dont do it. thats when you know about real confidence in yourself. when you can be told to do anything and you just go execute. when you just have no doubt. no doubt. that is what makes you win. lack of doubt. pursuit. All of these words are so connected.